Everything was good until lunch time. This morning the alarm clock went off at 5:20. I believe I layed in bed until 5:30. I wanted to get up to do some cardio on the treadmill. The day started off with me misjudging how long it takes me to get motivated, get my clothes on, and stretch so that I could get my workout in. After I finished and was ready to get on the treadmill, I only had 15 minutes until 6:00 am. The program that is on the treadmill burns 300 calories but it takes 30 minutes. So for 15 minutes I did a jog / walk. I tried to jog for as long as I could before I felt like my lungs were going to burst. Then I would slow it down so I could catch my breathe. This was not my ideal way to workout but it made me break a sweat and I burned over 100 calories.
After getting cleaned up I made the normal breakfast for my girls and me. I had my 2 eggs, 2 pieces of bologna, but this time I added a table spoon of mayo for taste. One of my weaknesses is mayo. The thing about mayo is there are little to no carbs, its just LOADED with empty calories so you have to watch out how much you eat. I also had a glass of tea.
When I got to work I had my normal morning Diet Coke. Now I may be wrong but I do believe that no one has proven yet that diet soda is bad for you, right?
At lunch, today I brought a salad. I love salads! In my salad today I used
- Iceberg Lettuce
- Olives
- Bacos
- Real Shredded Chedder
- Sliced Pickle
- Tuna
and to top it off I used an awesome Peppercorn Ranch Dressing. It was fab!
I know your probably looking at that salad and thinking "this salad is not healthy" but it is high in protein and low in carbs so it is right up my alley.
I also had a water to wash everything down.
Now the problem that I had was right before lunch a co-worker, for whom I can say cooks well and used to always bring me goodies, brought me in some deep fried Red Snapper and hush puppies. Man oh man I almost was not able to contain myself. I wanted them so bad because just last week he brought me some in and they were SO GOOD!
I could taste that hannd dipped batter. It was calling out to me. My mind started coming up with suggestions on ways to justify my eating every piece. Luckily it was wrapped in tin foil so I wrapped it up and stuft it in my lunch box. He also offered chicken and yellow rice. Thank goodness that he offered after I ate my salad so I was already full.
Now that may little episode probably wouldn't effect most people, but it messes with my head. I start to worry if I'm going to be able to continue. Hell, it's only the second day. I worry.
At 3:00 pm I have my 100 calorie yogurt and today, just for extra protein, I have a protein shake. I actually love protein shakes. When I was in my teens and lifting weights, protein was the "thing". I guess its a lot better than steroids.
After I left work I was still trying to justify having that fried "A-Bomb" in my lunch box. Your probably thinking "why didn't you throw it away"? I was taught as a child never to throw food away. Eat what you are given unless your not hungry. If your not hungry, give it to someone else. So I did.
My mother is on a fixed income and I know how much she loves fried fish and hush puppies. She probably needed a little company too so I took it to her and stayed with her for a little while shooting the breeze.
When I got home I prepared a meal for my girls and I. I cut up a green pepper, a yellow onion, and a top round steak. I julienned each item and mixed it in a frying pan coated with olive oil spray. I added garlic powder, and Montreal Steak Seasoning to give it that extra little kick.
As a side dish I boiled some brocolli florets and warmed up the left over baked beans from last night.
Now here is where I ran into my problem.
I made our plates like I always do. Sat down and everything was fine. The food was good, we talked, everything was fine. After I finished, I suddenly got the urge for mayonaise. So unconsciously I went to the fridge, broke out the mayo and proceeded to dip 1/4 table spoons out of the jar onto the meat and veggies that were in the pan.
Once I realised what I was doing there was only a little of the meat and veggies left.Enough for probably one serving. So I ate an extra serving to go along with my regular dinner serving.
I am so disappointed. I want this so bad. I've had this problem before. That is why all of my other diets have failed. Sometimes I eat and don't realise how much I'm taking in.
This has dampened my spirits a little bit but I am not going to let it kill me. Writing about this has actually been good therepy. There is always tomorrow and I will not give up.
Thanks for reading.
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