Day 6 - September 13, 2008

Today was a great day.

I caught up on my rest this morning. Usually on the weekends I get up at 5:00 am to get some work done while my girls are sleeping but today I decided that I needed the sleep and the work could wait. I slept until 7:30. It felt great.

My 2 year old was ready for milk as soon as I got up so I hurried and made her milk, grabbed her from the bed and layed her in the living room on a palette with CMT playing like we do every morning. While she drank her milk I cleaned the kitchen so that I could start making breakfast.

I made our normal breakfast this morning. Today just felt like it was going to be a great day. So I got a wild hair and decided to go to the beach. So I packed a cooler with a couple of sandwiches for my girls, some drinks, and some water. The only thing I forgot was something for me to eat. I delt with it.

We got to the beach and had a blast. My daughter finally walked in the sand by herself (normally she don't like the way the sand feels on her feet) and she, from out of no where, decided she wasn't afraid of the water anymore. I have pictures that I will put up. I had a Diet Coke while I was there and I did a lot of sunning and swimming. It felt great.

We stayed almost 2 hours and it was getting close to the little one's bedtime so we packed it up and headed home.

When we got home I decided to wash my truck while the babe took her nap. Then I helped washing the rest of my girlfriends car. Just burning up the calories today with simple tasks.

After we finished and got cleaned up, I made myself some tuna with one scoop of mayo, chopped onino, diced pickle, bacos, real cheese, spicy brown mustard, and garlic of course. I couldn't eat it all which surprised me. By this time I was on my second glass of tea.

I decided to do some work. So my girlfriend took a nap and I worked for a few hours. On the weekends I do Web Design and Search Engine Optimization along with a couple of other things. Anyway I can make some money, I try and learn it.

After the baby woke up we headed to our favorite place in the whole wide world. Wal-Mart! I was just kidding.

We had to grab a few things but we still ended up being there for almost an hour and a half!

By the time we got out of there it was almost 7:00 pm so I decided it was to late to cook. So I swung the car into Burger King. Now with my type of diet you are allowed one day to cheat. It has been explained to me that one day will help calm your cravings and it keeps your body fueled and burning weight. So I had it in my mindset that I was going to have a high calorie, high carb, high fat meal.

I rolled up to the drive thrue and it all looked good. All the pictures of the big giant burgers, milk shakes, cheesy tots, french fries, I mean just everything a fat boy could want. When I ordered, my girlfriend got the Fish Sandwich Combo, I ordered a Whopper JR for my daughter with a side of Cheesy Tots, and for me, I ordered a BIG ... FAT ... Tender Grilled Chicken Salad with Ranch dressing. That is what came out of my mouth. I couldn't believe it. The hardest part was trying to find a low carb alternative on that menu. There was one, little tiny section that had salads.

I will tell you one thing, that chicken salad was awesome and the right choice. I improved it by adding some bacos and cottage cheese, of course.

After we ate, my girlfriend told me that she wished she would have gotten the salad as well. She felt over stuffed and and miserable. I remember that feeling. That feeling of guilt. That feeling of hating yourself because you really didn't want to eat it but you did anyway. Let me just say that I had one of those cheesy tots in my mouth , ready to bite, and I took it out. I don't want to feel that guilt and hate anymore. A lot of that guilt and hate is what lead me to eat more, and more. You know the mindset of "Well, I've already screwed it up. This can't be any worse". I don't want that feeling anymore.

So now I am setting here, blogging away, and feeling great about myself. I won another battle.

I will finish my "Who I am" posting within the next few days.

Thanks for reading.